Something to help pass the time-

My camera is on its way to Nikon to be "evaluated." I hope that means "repaired, cheap," but I have my doubts.

In the meantime if you're the sort that likes looking at pictures of people you don't know, here's a couple of links you might enjoy- pics- more pics-

It's interesting looking at strangers pictures. I wonder about their stories, what shapes their lives, and how they deal with life.

I realised this morning that I've been depressed to some extent since late March. It bothers me a lot because the several months previous to that were some of the best of my life. And I don't know what happened.

The good Doctor's thoughts today stirred this up further. Quite frankly, I don't get God. I don't understand why He does what He does (feel free to throw in who, where, and when, if you like). I really appreciate Job, except that we know how Job ends, but have no guarantee of the same for ourselves (I apologize if I'm not speaking for you; I claim editorial prerogative. And since I'm depressed anyway, I don't really care what anybody else thinks. One of the few advantages to being depressed).

Hmm. Lost my train of thought.

Oh yeah- I'm depressed.

One of the things I do when depressed is try to escape. I've had a variety of venues- reading is a good one; As a teenager I spent more time reading than any type of interaction with reality. My favorite subject matter was science fiction of all most any type. I've read almost everything Heinlein wrote; towards the end his stuff seemed to be mostly a rehash of everything else he'd already written. Same thing with Steven King- I've read probably 90% of what he's written, and I've pretty much quit him entirely. Except for the Dark Tower, of course.

Another one, that really messed me up, was sexual fantasy. I got so involved with pornography that it pretty much controlled my life for a long time. Almost lost my marriage because of it.

One of my current favorites is playing spades online. I can spend hours playing. I call it a hobby to help justify it. Ha.

Well, I'm going to quit rambling for a while. Maybe I'll get back here today, writing seems to help.

Oh, and I'm still officially on hiatus, Reid.