Thursday, May 13, 2004

Good morning-

And it's very nice to be able to say that and feel it as well. I miss my camera- the sunrise was gorgeous this morning and I wanted to share it with ya'll. Haven't heard anything about it yet though. This is a rough time to be without it. I have three graduations to cover- my youngest daughter from sixth grade, my oldest daughter from high school, and my wife from college! At 41, Annie (my wife) went back to school and is now graduating with an Associate of Science degree in Office Technology Systems. With a 4.0 average! YAY!! Then last weekend we moved my oldest son out of the house- he's moving about five hours away- to Tallahasee, Florida. Not to school, just time for him to start a life apart from his family. The move had some tough moments, especially for Annie, saying good-bye to her first born on Mother's Day. And of course we have graduation parties coming up as well- I guess I'm going to have to resort to film- So Blogger has this new interface...which was my reference to cheese yesterday...and if you've never read Who Moved My Cheese, you still have no idea what I'm talking about. Anyway, I haven't had time to play with it yet. Have to see what it will do. TTFN-

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

I could have sworn I put my cheese right there...

Yes, it is the 11th. I hope you weren't expecting too much.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Something to help pass the time-

My camera is on its way to Nikon to be "evaluated." I hope that means "repaired, cheap," but I have my doubts.

In the meantime if you're the sort that likes looking at pictures of people you don't know, here's a couple of links you might enjoy- pics- more pics-

It's interesting looking at strangers pictures. I wonder about their stories, what shapes their lives, and how they deal with life.

I realised this morning that I've been depressed to some extent since late March. It bothers me a lot because the several months previous to that were some of the best of my life. And I don't know what happened.

The good Doctor's thoughts today stirred this up further. Quite frankly, I don't get God. I don't understand why He does what He does (feel free to throw in who, where, and when, if you like). I really appreciate Job, except that we know how Job ends, but have no guarantee of the same for ourselves (I apologize if I'm not speaking for you; I claim editorial prerogative. And since I'm depressed anyway, I don't really care what anybody else thinks. One of the few advantages to being depressed).

Hmm. Lost my train of thought.

Oh yeah- I'm depressed.

One of the things I do when depressed is try to escape. I've had a variety of venues- reading is a good one; As a teenager I spent more time reading than any type of interaction with reality. My favorite subject matter was science fiction of all most any type. I've read almost everything Heinlein wrote; towards the end his stuff seemed to be mostly a rehash of everything else he'd already written. Same thing with Steven King- I've read probably 90% of what he's written, and I've pretty much quit him entirely. Except for the Dark Tower, of course.

Another one, that really messed me up, was sexual fantasy. I got so involved with pornography that it pretty much controlled my life for a long time. Almost lost my marriage because of it.

One of my current favorites is playing spades online. I can spend hours playing. I call it a hobby to help justify it. Ha.

Well, I'm going to quit rambling for a while. Maybe I'll get back here today, writing seems to help.

Oh, and I'm still officially on hiatus, Reid.